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"One of the most amazing feelings in the world is having someone fall in love with you who you thought you never had a chance with."

— (via iheartnatqtpie88)

"When a female is used to getting hurt, she won’t know how it feels when a man starts to appreciate her, so she ends up pushing him away."

— (via iheartnatqtpie88)

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1. Go to bed when your body tells you its time. When you’re eating to stay awake and the screen is blurring, close it. Close it and climb into bed and close your eyes. Listen to yourself.

2. Wake when your body tells you its time. Wake when you’ve had enough REM and wake when its time to work. Don’t hide. Don’t force yourself back to sleep. Don’t tuck the covers in a little closer and pretend it’s black beyond your eyelids. Open them. Open your eyes. Listen to yourself.

3. Stop being defensive when you see those “eat healthy, get healthy” signs. Understand that they aren’t targeting you. Listen. Then listen to your body. Is it craving salts? Is it craving sweets? Do you think that piece of paper looks yummy? Give it what it wants, but don’t spoil it. Listen to your body like you would a child. Listen with respect but don’t spoil. Love your body like you would your child.

4. Cook for yourself. Cook like your mother would. Remember her. Remember her food. Cook her favorites and make them yours. Lock the freezer food for bad nights and invite friends to eat your food as if they were family. Make them family. Feed them and love them and cook like your mother would. Remember what it was like to have family.

5. End the day with a massage. Work out the knots that have built up and empty yourself of the stress. Empty yourself of your boss’ disapproving look and your partner’s sigh. Empty yourself of the rage you felt when that dick of a blue car cut you off on Route 55 and empty yourself of your own fear that you haven’t done enough today (or ever). Empty yourself of doubt and get ready to open yourself for sleep, for dreams, for rest. Then closer your eyes and open yourself.

6. Don’t punish yourself. Even when stressed, even when scared, listen to your body. Every child makes mistakes, but you must forgive. Even when a child makes a mistake, don’t you still respect them? Don’t punish yourself. Drink that water bottle. Eat that Snickers bar. Don’t punish yourself. Listen to yourself.

7. Cry. Cry when you need to. Cry when the world gets too much and you hate yourself. Cry when you feel you’ve screw up and your partner leaves you. Cry when your friends stop calling and your family falls apart. Cry when you’re blaming yourself. Don’t feel guilty for crying. Just cry.

8. And then get up. Look in the mirror. Look in the mirror and see how stupid you can be and how ugly you feel. See the red around your eyes and the dark marks from that one god-awful pimple and the way your stomach isn’t flat. But then stop and really look. Look at yourself and see yourself. See a person, a human being who is prone to mistakes, who is stupid and feels ugly but is always beautiful. See the slope of your nose and the delicate laugh lines around your eyes. See your lips and how unnatural they look pulled down and remember yours is a face for happiness. And then smile through the tears and look down. Start at your feet; see the cute, pudginess of your toes. See the arc of your foot. Look at the fragileness of your ankle and the strength of your calves for always holding you up, keeping you standing. Look at your knees, the knees that sometimes want to give out and applaud them, applaud your knees for staying strong. Then go up. Look at your thighs and appreciate the muscles that keep you walking, keep you running. See your sex and remember the pleasure it can give you, how hard it works just to love you. Appreciate it. Appreciate it even when you feel its wrong or society feels its wrong or society treats you wrong because of it. It’s not its fault. Appreciate it if you can’t love it and move on. Look at your stomach and thank it. Thank it for caring for you, for feeding you. Apologize for hating it, knowing it will not be last time. Stare at your chest, see the slopes of your breasts and feel them. Feel the weight and accept them. Tell them its okay. You don’t blame them. Then look at your arms. The arms that pick you up every time your knees need a break. Look at your arms and love them. Love the little wrinkle of flesh on your elbow and the hair that grows under your armpit and the scars from life that litter your fingers. Love them. Look at your shoulders and see how they bear the weight of your world and love them. Then stare at your neck, your lifeline, and see the strain of keeping your head held high and thank it. Thank it for not letting you fall and straighten up. Look at yourself, see yourself and smile. Love yourself. Listen to yourself. Admit you cried and move on

9. Don’t shower. Showers are efficient and formal and effective. Take baths. Take baths even when under the shower. Take your time. Soak. Love yourself when you bath. Rub the soap into every crevice and corner and get familiar. Remember your body. Commit it to memory and remember it. Get intimate. Love yourself.

10. Walk with your head high. Don’t bow. Even when your boss is mad, look him in the eye, explain. Even when your friends are looking at you with expectations you know you can’t meet, keep your head high and refuse, explain and refuse. Don’t bow. Even when your partner is screaming and throwing things, stare them in the eye and demand attention and respect. Don’t take them back. Not again. Leave. Leave with your head held high. Don’t bow. Never again. Don’t bow. Remember you neck and your shoulders and your calves and their strength and walk away. Don’t bow.

11. Make new friends. Get to know your coworkers and invite them for dinner. Go to the park and smile. Bring your dog and smile. Let people pet him and talk to them. Introduce yourself. Keep your head high. Even when it doesn’t work, keep trying, Meet new people. Go to the music store and see who is in your favorite isle. Talk music, talk politics, talk media. Keep your head high and when it works, invite them for dinner. Love yourself and let yourself be loved.

12. Accept that you don’t want to be alone. Be okay with that. Love yourself and know you want more and find them. Date. Don’t fall in love. Not yet. You can’t yet because it’s still too raw and accept that that is okay. Love yourself and let yourself be loved. Date. Go on lots of dates and when the time comes, listen to yourself and love more than just yourself. But don’t force it. Listen, close your eyes and open yourself. Let yourself be loved and love.

13. Write a list of what you enjoy and then write a list of things you’ve never done. Keep adding. Move the things you’ve never done to the list of things you enjoy and add to the list of things you’ve never done as you learn more about the world. Try things you think you’d hate and be okay when you prove yourself right. But keep trying things you think you’d hate. Be happy when you surprise yourself. Do the things you love more often but leave room for new things. Invite friends and friends-who-are-family and family-who-are-more-like-friends to things you enjoy. Make it something you enjoy doing with them. Be okay with being disappointed when they don’t enjoy it as much as you do. Accept and move on. Find new things to do together. Keep adding to your lists.

14. Clear your house of clutter. Mark things to be thrown away and do it. Throw it away. Even things you’re not sure you want to throw away, throw away. Make room. Look at your house and see how much space you have. Space to fill with new things that you like more and applaud yourself. Be okay with being a little sad to see the old stuff gone away. Admit you’re human but applaud yourself for moving on. Move on.

15. Collect memories and remember. Even sad ones, don’t forget. Fill the empty spaces in your house with things you love and love yourself and let yourself be loved so you can love more than yourself. Open yourself. Open yourself and live. Go to bed when you need to so you can wake up when its time and make new memories. Don’t hide. Listen. Love. Live.

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Writing of the Day #10: 15 steps to being happy by lackingcommonsense117

inspired by acceptvnce ’s “Sixteen Small Steps to Happiness”

© 2014

(via lackingcommonsense117)

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One.
I wish I were the kind of person that people would remember after meeting for the first time. But no, I am often easily dismissed. If people were places I am a sidewalk you’ll never pass by; the alleys are too dark and the steps are too narrow and it is not worth your time.

Two.
Some people tend to write songs for moments like this. I tend to write endless proses. In my head, there were a million things left unsaid and I wanted to break free of them, but I was a dark alley and you were those colored lights, and I hold too many secrets to spill them all to you after a handful of conversations.

Three.
Lately, I’ve been trying to find the right words to string together and form a perfect harmony that could be meaningful, but I have yet to find the right notes that would describe this chaos perfectly.

Four.
I don’t want to let you get to me in all these hidden spaces I didn’t even know existed, only for you to become a poem that I can never write. The more you try to get to me the more I’ll stay further away until someday I’ll be Alaska, and the miles between us will be more than from here to Russia.

Five.
I know that I could love you in ways no one has ever had, but at the same time I don’t want to give you parts of myself just to make you whole.

Six.
The more I try to stop the more I am dooming myself to feel, I think. My days seem incomplete without your words to soothe me and assure me of things I don’t even know about myself. I’ve been lonely for too long.

Seven.
Every time you get to me I could feel myself crack open and tip my hourglass over the cliff. But I can’t be like this and it frightens me.

Eight.
I am terrified I would end up needing you, and I’ve always clung unto a lot of almosts.

Nine.
If this is different, I can only hope you’d prove me wrong.
(And I really hope you’d prove me wrong, as I have been lonely for too long).

Ten.
If I could give you a twisted sunset I would, just so when you look at shades of orange and blue, you’d be reminded of me. I’m going to push you further away now, and you can come to me when you’re ready.

Eleven.
I don’t know how to end this.

"


A Story A Day #272 by Ming D. Liu

A Story A Day #272 by Ming D. Liu

(via mingdliu)

"Your body has curves and valleys. It has roads and turns. Your body is a map and it should be explored."

I always enjoyed road trips (via aueful)

itshoplessthatiamaromantic:

The truth hurts

itshoplessthatiamaromantic:

The truth hurts

Some people aren’t meant to be in your life forever but that doesn’t mean there is no such thing as forever…
Love is LOYAL so if you give your heart to one person, it’s stays with them forever.


"They often told me
that one day
a prince charming
was going to come along
and sweep me off my feet.

So I stayed
bounded behind these gates,
waiting for the moment
I hear the slaying of dragons
and the galloping of his gallant horse.
I waited
and waited
for someone to
come show me love,
to prove to me
that it existed
when they should have taught me
to give myself love,
first.

Because princesses
need princes to wake up them,
to break the chains,
to kiss them,
and whisk them away
into a magical castle
where everything seems possible.

But I am not a fucking princess.

I am a woman
and I will build this damn castle
myself.
And all this talk about being saved
from the evil queen
and poisoned needles-
I can save myself.
And dreaming of a true love?
Well hey,
I am my own first love
and I won’t let anyone
sweep me off my feet
until I am free enough to fly on my own.

If life is ever a fairy tale,
then I am my own fucking hero.
"

A Story A Day #259 by Ming D. Liu
(via mingdliu)

(via mingdliu)

mediwriter:

You need not see the stars just to know that I love you. On nights where the stars are hidden behind dark clouds, I still love you. Five months, five years, five lifetimes — I love you just as much as I love you now. Or maybe even more. It may be hard for now, with the distance between us, but we’ll get through this. Together.

I love you.

It’s a pretty calming Sunday morning. good morning yo!!
#photography #life #easylikeSundaymorning

It’s a pretty calming Sunday morning. good morning yo!!
#photography #life #easylikeSundaymorning

You need not see the stars just to know that I love you. On nights where the stars are hidden behind dark clouds, I still love you. Five months, five years, five lifetimes — I love you just as much as I love you now. Or maybe even more. It may be hard for now, with the distance between us, but we’ll get through this. Together.
I love you my love!!

You need not see the stars just to know that I love you. On nights where the stars are hidden behind dark clouds, I still love you. Five months, five years, five lifetimes — I love you just as much as I love you now. Or maybe even more. It may be hard for now, with the distance between us, but we’ll get through this. Together.
I love you my love!!

RULE1033 : Stop cursing the darkness and light some candles. No matter how little the light is within you, it will disperse all darkness. 
#life #photography #love #blackandwhite #monochorome #rejectscorner #patama #banat

RULE1033 : Stop cursing the darkness and light some candles. No matter how little the light is within you, it will disperse all darkness.
#life #photography #love #blackandwhite #monochorome #rejectscorner #patama #banat

Just like the rain…you’re giving me mixed emotions.
#rain #nostalgia #life #monocrome #photography #streetphoto

Just like the rain…you’re giving me mixed emotions.
#rain #nostalgia #life #monocrome #photography #streetphoto